Welp. We survived yet another year.
For the random visitors that don’t know me, I challenged myself on Instagram to post one positive thing every day for all of 2020, and I actually started off really strong.
And then 2020 hit.
The point of the challenge was to help condition myself into thinking more positively. Rather than being sad all the time, I wanted to be able to have a bad day, but still find something good to help me through it. And like I said, I was doing pretty well at first.
However, what made me stop was the rallying behind George Floyd’s sudden and unjust death.
Seeing so many people band together and call out the injustices in our country really affected me. All of my socials exploded in solidarity for Floyd and the Black Lives Matter Movement. Suddenly, it felt wrong to focus on my little day to day griefs. Something BIG was happening and here I was saying “oop, cried at work but at least it was sunny!”.
Yeah, not the best time to be doing that.
As always though, the internet moved on and was no longer exploding in coverage and solidarity, but even then, it felt weird to be posting positives, and the feeling grew as the year went on and things kept getting worse.
Eventually, I gave up on the “Everyday Something Good” tag I had going on. Yet, I still kept up with my daily posts. Though most of it honestly just became spam, having a daily outlet was really helpful for me, especially on the bad days.
Having somewhere where I could regurgitate my emotions was helpful. It helped me process and try to validate what I was feeling. The only issue was that it felt weird letting all of Instagram know when I was feeling depressed, anxious, or worse.
So, here we are.
A place where I can throw everything at the wall, and not feel weird about it.
A lot happened this past year. A lot I still need to unpack, honestly. I’m sure I’m not alone in this either. So, if you’re here, and you are instantly turned away from my random thoughts and moods. Let me know. Comments should be working (hopefully) and I’d like to know anyone and everyone’s thoughts as well.
How was your day? Do you relate with anything I say? What are your opinions on whatever I’m talking about?
The goal is to keep this as a safe space for all, so if you just need to rant, that works too.
2020 was complete ass.
2021? Who knows.
Let’s make it a good one.
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