Hello friends, it’s been a while.
I’ve recently found myself feeling conflicted.
I originally started doing this because I thought I was an adequate enough writer to truly convey what I was feeling. I thought I understood my feelings enough that I could convey them into words. I thought I was eloquent enough to keep my thoughts interesting.
Wrong on all accounts of course.
Even so, I did enjoy these posts. It was therapeutic to simply let go of whatever feelings or thoughts I was building up throughout the day. But, somewhere along the way, I think I became too self aware, after which I started my internship which didn’t help, and just, little by little, more and more minor inconveniences built up and just overwhelmed me.
My mind and body were just too exhausted to delve deep and explore what I was feeling. To even attempt to do so would drain me so much, it simply just wasn’t an option anymore.
Honestly, I’m not sure why it got this bad.
I wish I could say it was simply exhaustion but truthfully, I know it was more than that. Every time I attempted to write, it just felt like I was trying to force myself through some dark, murky swamp. The more and more I struggled, the harder and slower I’d write. So I just stopped.
A lot has happened since then, and hopefully I’ll be able to explore everything and explain things one by one. For now though, all I can say is that things are getting better. What used to feel like an impossibility has now turned into something attainable.
A light at the end of the tunnel, as they say.
For now though, I’ll just do what I can. One word at a time.
’till next time.
Lunar Thoughts 