Today, I had the opportunity to get a much needed break from myself.
Sometimes, I forget how important it is to ‘reset’. Not with crying or meltdowns, but through other people.
It’s hard to remember how much people care for me, but, it feels nice, being able to see that care.
Simply put, I was reminded how nice it feels to spend time with others. As well as, reminded of how much good it does for me and my mental state.
I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned before how I tend to ghost people, especially the ones that I’m closest too. It’s a bad habit. A combination of my fear of intimacy, abandonment, and self-destructive tendencies.
Not a great combo.
But, I think out of everything I need to work on this year, that is going to be my priority.
I definitely need more socializing. Being stuck with myself is killing me, slowly but surely.
Aside from my mental state, it’s also just really enjoyable.
The more I write, the more I realize how much I love people. How much I love my friends.
Though I am afraid of overwhelming them with my affection. I definitely need to make time for them.
So, watch out everyone? I’m making time for you this year.
Hopefully.
‘Till next time.
Lunar Thoughts 