“I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.”
Okay so, this one is going to be a weird one.
Basically, I have this weird…tendency when it comes to my dreams.
To get straight to the point, I have this alternate reality that I fall into when I dream sometimes. How often this happens varies a lot, sometimes it’ll be every night, other times it might only be once or twice every few months. Though the fact that this has been happening to me consistently for years now is…concerning? I’m not sure how I feel about it honestly.
Like on one hand, it’s a really nice alternative to my current reality. In this dream world, I have a loving family, a job that I don’t hate, the ability to pursue my hobbies, and just an overall nice life. It’s relaxing and gives me a concrete idea of what I want for myself in the future.
I think that’s normal? Everyone has some idealized version of the future that they carry for themselves, an idea of what they are trying to achieve for themselves. But it’s weird for me because I’m “living” this other reality.
To better explain, the people that appear in the dream world aren’t just random brain blips, but actual characters. As far as I know, I don’t know any of these people in reality, but in the dream world, I know their names, their backgrounds, how they respond to things emotionally, and who they are as people overall.
That’s not normal as far as I know?
What really bothers me about this dream world is how I feel after I wake up.
Living through such a fulfilling life then what I have right now just leaves me aching every time I wake up. I yearn for the opportunity to live a life so full of love and happiness, stripped away of all the instabilities currently in my mind.
But I recognize that such a response isn’t normal, or healthy for that matter. If anything, it’s scary thinking that my brain decided I can’t successfully cope with my own reality, so in return, it just creates a brand new reality for me to experience. It makes me question how much I’ve actually grown as a person, considering I still fall into this dream world to this day.
I’ve tried talking about this to other people and they all responded with the same weird “okay…” response.
So, I don’t know. If someone else has a similar experience I’d absolutely love to know. But otherwise, I hope you guys won’t start viewing me a little stranger than before.
‘Till next time.
Lunar Thoughts 